June 13, 2008

and so it begins...

my 30's.

Josh is helping a friend move. My girls are all sleeping. My dog is asleep at my feet. And I'm watching Pride and Prejudice (the new one).

I think I can handle my 30's.

I'm not as depressed as I sound in my earlier post. I do have struggles and issues with myself but doesn't everyone?

I want to strengthen my relationship with the Lord.
I want to be a happier mom and not get so edgy about little things.
I want to be more active and not feel so lazy.
I want to lost 30 pounds.
I want to do this life the way He wants me to do it. And right now, I just don't think I am.

Just a little while ago, I couldn't feel the power or the hope, I couldn't cope. I couldn't feel a thing. Just a little while back I was desperate, broken, laid out, hoping You would come. And I need You. I need You here. And I feel You. I feel You here and you're picking up the pieces. (gotta love Sara)

You know how your foot falls asleep if you sit on it for too long. And when you start moving it again it tingles and hurts all at once.

I've been asleep for too long. Waking up is hard. Picking up the pieces is hard. But I just keep at it, one step at a time. Until the tingling is gone.

Then I can run.

2 comments:

  1. i love this. i love your family. i love you! happy, happy birthday to you and your beautiful girl.

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  2. Happy Birthday to you both! I can't believe Lael is 7 already. How fast they grow up!
    And know that God is making you into the person He wants you to be. It might be a little different than what you thought, but be confident he is still working.

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