August 2, 2010

knives

I cried today.
We were at our storage room and I wanted my butcher block of knives. They were no where to be found.
So I pulled out my rocking chair, right into the middle of the chaos, sat down and cried.

This is the scene that my poor husband walked into.
Then he found the knives.
And asked me repeatedly why I was crying over knives.

I said I just wanted my knives and my kitchen and our house to be settled. But it's not just that.

I'm exhausted.
My doctor is creating drama in my life.
Other situations are adding more drama. The kind of drama that makes me want to walk away and never look back. I don't like drama.
My daughters are tired of upheaval. They've been amazing but they're all ready for a house that feels like home.
My husband is going on a business trip. He's packing right now. It's just an overnighter but even that 48 hours - in the middle of all this - is just hard.
And I couldn't find my knives, one if them being a Christmas gift from last year.

But my hubby found my knives.
My doctor will be reminded that she works for me and I've done this whole 'deliver a large baby' thing before.
Drama will cease. Or I'll just keep ignoring it.
My daughters will quickly settle in to our adorable rental house. And we will make progress on our dream house.
My hubby will be back soon.
God is faithful. Everything will be fine.

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4 comments:

  1. I have a few free hours tomorrow late afternoon, early evening. Can I come help you?

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  2. Giving you and your baby a really tight hug! Praying for smoother days and a house that is completely settled for your new baby and lovely daughters....and a hubby so sweet as to find your knives. My love and understanding.

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  3. I'm happy for you that you have your knives...I am actually looking forward to finding mine, too ;). I'll keep you in my prayers for the rest of your drama. Upheaval is no fun, I can't imagine dealing with upheaval while pregnant...but you're right, God is faithful and He promises rest :).

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  4. Can I just say that I am glad that I'm not the only one who has moments like that in the middle of turmoil and unknowns?

    I've been thinking of you and praying for your family through this crazy time!

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